upset.

cos was so looking forward to mambo and still didnt manage to go in the end. sulks. i need some destress-ing activities.

if that's not the worst, marvin koo just called to tell me how much he envy me that im at home and all. cos it's cold and crowded outside and it seems like the whole world is out partying tonight. and when i told him how much i wanted to go, he told me blantantly that i can still dress up at home, play some retro songs and make some drinks for myself since im a bit late to go out now. long long long long long queue (according to him), but not as bad as the queue on the previous public hols. duh. and it's really nice of him to end of the conversation with a reminder that im still in time for 1-for-1! faiints.

upset la.

seems like partying always fail whenever it's mambo. weekdays got to work, public hols also cant go. not that i dont have company to mambo, just feel weird hanging out with a group of people who im not close with or who i dont really know. so i only club with the same group of people. keet, i really 佩服 you for attending the butter factory party alone! perhaps, should have just gone ahead with ian and friends. maybe it's time to search for some part-time kakis whenever/in case the full-timers cant make it. sulks.

im really upset.

dont get me wrong, i do enjoy cozy gatherings and quiet moments. and definitely, partying is not a everyday thing cos i have no such energy. but it's hard to swallow the disappointment when u are so so so looking forward, specially arranging the next day schedules(despite the year end mad rush) to a bit later just to accomodate a night of fun and distress, and thinking to yourself, finally! the previous time i was at zouk was in july 07 and the one before that was july 06. will the next be july 08?

extremely upset.

dont feel like going anywhere or attending/organizing anything at the moment. leave me alone.
time to work again. no more play time.

i need some fags.